So I was reading back through my previous blog and it seems the last time I blogged was the last time I went to Switzerland and met Amy’s mum.
Wow, how so much has changed since the last time I came on here… I should come on here more often really, I aways like to have a little vent and chat some shit to myself. I only ever usually do this sort of thing when I have time on my hands and I have nothing better to do.
Prime example… Right now!! I am sat in Café Nero near Manchester Piccadilly station, I’d say in Manchester but I said that it was near the station ha ha. I am going snowboarding this weekend with my mate from York. I can’t wait. My mum got me a new snowboard for Christmas and some new gear for my birthday.
They’re awesome man!! I really love them!! I can’t wait to get on the slopes and test them all out. I’m a little scared about going this time… Last time we went we knew that we couldn’t board… But since then we have had a few lessons and are comfortable on a board which makes me more confident… When I get confident I tend to take it to the extremes and go too far! Going to the more challenging part of the slopes or going fast than I should. How else are we to push ourselves though?
My mate is bringing his GoPro HD camera that is barely the size of a pack of fags. It attaches to your clothes and has a remote so you can fix it to your helmet or jacket and press record and away it goes… Recording in glorious HD as we glide down the side of a mountain.
I have been practising editing videos… For we have now set up a group called “Heroes of the Joker Card”… Which in essence is a media and entertainment group of friends and make music, videos, events or anything else you could want us to do. It is still in the very early stages of development and we still have a lot of work to do to get it where we want to get it but it definitely has a lot of potential to be great. We have a YouTube channel with a couple of videos on it which I will link for you now…
I’ll also put our Facebook there if you want to venture over to it and give us a like. That way you will be able to keep in check and up-to-date with what we are up to
Go and check out the song that we have up or the music video that we made. Like I say, it is still in the very early stages and we still have a long way to go.
I usually dedicate part of this blog to write about how me and Amy are getting on… I wouldn’t fail to keep up the tradition in this blog too. We are great!! It has almost been 2 months since we made things official!! This has been the happiest time of my life!
My prospects have improved so much since I have got to know her. She makes me want to push myself and achieve the things that I know I am capable of yet have never really put the effort in to want them. I was on a childcare course until just after Christmas but I decided that maybe childcare wasn’t the correct route to go for me and I have now opted for Youth Work.
I know it’s not a massive change but this way, I can now get off the dole and finally get earning money as well as gaining experience as a volunteer in a youth club near my house. To be honest the thing I am most looking forward to is earning money!! Being able to stand on my own two feet and support myself and take Amy out and not worry about how much I am spending. Pay my own bills and not rely on my mum or anyone else for help.
This has bugged me for a long time. Not being able to support myself… It really has. But now since I have been with Amy, as much as it has been a slow transition to get where I want to go… I am finally getting there!! So in hindsight… Amy is the BEST thing that has ever happened to be… ever. She means so much to me. She is the only person that I have ever thought I could have a future with.
I haven’t ever really thought about the future… I tend to plan for the coming days or weeks. I never really think about the next few months or years. Now that I am with her that has changed… I turn 22 in a couple of weeks. I am getting on now, I don’t want to say I am getting old because I aren’t really, 22 is still a tender age. Granted it’s the back end of the age you can fuck things up and get away with it but 22 is still no age. Now I am thinking about the things I need to be doing to get myself a future sorted, a career sorted, a house, a family. Who knows what is around the corner… I don’t that’s for frigging certain!! All I do know is… I want Amy to be a part of it!!
Sitting in Café Nero at the minute and I have just glanced out of the window and saw the snow!! WOW!! It is insane how much it is coming down. When I came in it was snowing a little bit but not nearly as much as it is now!! My mum told me that it is nearly a foot deep in Zurich. She said that it has been snowing non stop for the past 4 days. I do love the snow… We have had quite a lot of it this year in the North-East… I got a little sick of it if I am totally honest. But I am well prepared for the sub-zero temperatures it will be in Switzerland for the few days I will be there.
Well I think I am signing off now. I am going for a surf on the World Wide Web and numb my brain with something instead of filling it with potentially valuable information. Jokes… I’m going to get another coffee and go and plug Heroes some more and talk about Amy somewhere ha ha. It’s what I do best!!
Peace out followers… Take care and I guess I will speak to you all very soon.
Today i found really interesting. We were doing a brainstorm about how we can be who we want to be online and change our attitudes or appearances.
The fact that we DO have a very different life here on the internet really got me thinking about how much i actually use it and how, myself is portrayed.
I wouldn’t exactly call myself in introvert, that’s the last word i would use to describe myself… but i do use the internet as an escape from the real world, as do many people. The fact that we don’t have to actually deal with people to be able to interact with them and sometimes not care if you offend them or so on can be nice.
Take tumblr for example, I use tumblr for mainly re-blogging about what other people have blogged and pictures that I would want to take myself but if people were to see them and not know that is was my profile i can imagine that they wouldn’t think it was me posting them.
The variety of people that you can meet is awesome, from so many different cultures and backgrounds… I just love to think that there is someone out there reading this post and possibly taking a little something from it. I can’t imagine there will be coz I only have like 40 followers lol.
Well any hoo, I must go and check my girlfriends bank coz we are getting a cheeky takeaway before i go to work tonight.
Peace out tumblr :)
Hey everyone :)
Hows it going? How was your weekend?
Mine has been okay… I mean we had Thursday off work as it was a bank holiday. Then Friday was wicked, I got to leave work an hour and a half early because we had no kids in.
Saturday was chilled out, nothing out of the ordinary happened, I went for a gander into the city and decided to catch a few rays down by the lake. I am trying to get a decent tan before I get to uni in September.
I really want to get fit, I just don’t have to self dicipline nor the motivation to do it. It is so frustrating at times, how lazy I can be and how I can be happy with so little. It is something that is going to have to come within, I know this. I kind of need it now though.
So it’s Sunday, I have to be at work for 8.30, which means a 6.50am wake up call, which isn’t too bad. I am totally a morning person! I am just the same on a morning as I am at say midday or 3pm. I have to have a coffee on a morning though, proper coffee, not that instant shit. I am usually like any person that is pre-coffee on a morning, all groggy, bumping into shit, knocking things over ha ha.
I think I am going to start reading and writing a bit more rather than just floating about on the internet and being bored. I read the other day and I though it was a pretty good saying, “Only a boring person gets bored.”
That made me think, I get bored pretty easily if my attention isn’t been kept by something. Does this make me boring? Naah, just makes me easily bored :)
I haven’t actually got much more to say to be honest, I may upload a few pics from one of day days out somewhere soon.
Well I hope you enjoy what is left of your Sunday, be it a minute an hour or 6 hours, make the most of it… You never know what is round the corner.
Peace out and thanks for reading :)
Hey guys, how we all doin today?
I have just got into uni and waiting for my mum to come and sort me out so I can crack on with this coding I have to do so I thought I would post a quick tumblr thing :).
Anything nice planned for today, I can see me been here for a little while to be honest, got a good few videos to code. It is awesome weather today in zurich, I would love to be going to the lake and getting a few beers in and chill the eff out.
I have been in a pretty good mood all day but just before I came here I proper got the urge to have a cig. I didn’t have no decent moneys, so I had to raid me bloody copper jar which stressed me out to death, having to count out these shitty pennies, then they wouldnt co-operate with me putting them back in my tub, fucking things.
I got my fags, had two and now I feel okay again… phew lol. I’ve had a pretty good, productive day today. I got caught up on all my washing, I did my mums washing for her. I ate some food (but I am hungry again :/), had a nice cold shower to refresh myself and then headed here.
I got some awesome new music to tell you guys about, but I will do that a bit later when I get home so I don’t get any of their names wrong and stuff but they are wicked. I am currently sat listening to Ellie Goulding, what a legend.
Anyhow, I will wrap it up for now, hope you all have a good day and catch plenty of the rays that the sun seems to be sending our way.
Take it easy and don’t do anything i wouldn’t do*
Peace out :)
Hey Guys, hows it going?
I am okay today, I got a phone call of a friend that I haven’t spoke to in like forever and it was really really nice to hear from her. We used to speak like all the time but we kinda drifted and don’t really talk as much any more :(. She is awesomely cool and so down to Earth. She helped me through a really difficult time in my life, she was a total lifeline that I really really needed at that time. She was the voice of reason that I lacked. It’s such a shame that we never actually got to meet properly, we went to the same school together but we were never actually introduced or ever had a proper conversation in person (But I am determined to meet her eventually and keep in contact with her as she is someone, that may not know it, but means a lot to me). It was kinda strange how we got talking, I made a new facebook and added her and she asked if she knew me or if I knew her I can’t quit remember but from then on in, we spent a good few months talking every night till the early hours about life and what we wanted to do with our futures and stuff. I really wish I knew what I wanted to do when I was her age, she isn’t much younger than me but she has direction and determination to get what she wants to. I do hope we keep in touch a bit more because it was awesome to hear from her today, it really cheered me up as I haven’t really been feeling myself over these past few days. So if you are reading this… thanks dude :)
Work was the usual… Bouncing about with the kiddies and having über lots of fun! We spent the whole afternoon out in the sun, we were all playing with footballs and playing roley poley down hills. I do love my job! I get to just be me and let loose. I do tend to get a little bit too crazy though, then i have to sit down for 5 mins and have a little word with myself and tell me to calm down lol. I don’t have to do that very often but I have been known to have to sit in a corner and chill for a little while as I do get very carried away. I guess I have my super-extrovert personality to blame for that one. I do enjoy been the way I am, people always ask me… How do you do it? (talk to randomers and do the random things I do.)
Well it’s Friday tomorrow, which means its the end of another working week, which means it is the beginning of another weekend, which may I add is NEVER long enough! I will be re-doing my FACS test this weekend, as I failed the first attempt at a .63 out of the .70 needed to pass! I guess it’s a good thing I failed it the first time, because it will make me re-think and try harder. My mum asked me if it had knocked my motivation to do it but it hadn’t it had made me want to do it more. I would do it when I come in from work but it takes a lot of concentration, concentration that I don’t have after a day at work. So I will go into uni with my mum over the weekend and go over it all again.
It is my mums birthday next week, I will go get her some flowers and a card and what not, but i also want to take her to get something querky and unique which she likes. Something medieval or roman or something with a historic/artistic value. She likes things like that, which has only recently surfaced, because if I had knew this before I would have been buying her stuff like this for a long time. There’s no time like the present though right :)
Well I think I am done for tonight, my rant is over :)
I wish you all the nicest of weekends
Peace out :)
Hey, How is everyone?
I am feeling a little melancholy today. I don’t particularly know why to be honest. I was in a foul mood yesterday, I may have cracked one or two smiles but nothing compared to my usual happy self.
I don’t know whether it is the fact that Uni is creeping up very fast and I am getting nervous or it is just one of those hormonal stages that we all just love to go through every now and again.
My day hasn’t been bad, I mean, work was fine. Just an average day to be honest, one of the kids was sick and latched onto me for the day (not that it bothers me because he is my favorite), everyone at work got told today that I was leaving come September. All the parents will be told via email tomorrow.
*Sighs* I don’t know what is up with me. I don’t know whether to cry or just crawl into a hole and hibernate until this feeling passes. I know women love to have a good cry, I wonder if the same applies for men as well?
I tried watching Lie to Me (Which is officially the BEST programme on tele!) to cheer me up a little, I must say, Tim Roth and his sarcastic manor in lie to me is amazing and managed to cheer me up for a little while. Damn hormones… Jees I sound pregnant ha ha.
Currently sat listening to Newton Faulkner! What a musician! Very very good with a guitar. My favorite song by him is either “People should smile more” or “Uncomfortably Slow.” I am also tired, I usually have a little nap when I get in from work but I refrained today because I wanted to see if not going to sleep let me get to sleep later with more ease.
I hate not being able to sleep, proper does my head in. I will be sat for hours, just staring at the ceiling thinking “The last time I looked at the clock it was 12.30am, that was at least 2 hours ago and I am up and 5.50am to go to work.” Eventually I drift off but not after a very long battle with myself, my quilt and the bloody sofa.
This happens a good 4 days a week that I cannot sleep. When I get over to sleep, it’s fine… It’s just the initial switching off that takes forever!
I think my rant is over for today and I am going to bed now.
So all the best people
Peace out :)